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Farewell...

PINK was the very first Boris album I have listened to.
I have been vaguely aware of them for some time, kind of solely only due to their split album with cotd (a hip acronym for coaltar of the deepers for those of us in the know) which to my utter disappointment, blew freaking balls.
It took almost 2 years for me to listen to another Boris project, which oddly, shares almost exactly the same timeframe in which my relationship both started and ended.

I first heard this song three days after having broken up with my partner of nearly 2 years.

The opening minute for this song is so sparce, with just a slow drum pattern and swirling feedback that a reverb drenched guitar plucks over. It sounds so incredibly lonely and full of foreboding and grief to me, like the moment right after experiencing loss, before everything truly sets in, and you're trying your best to make sense of things. Then the feedback swells, and the first vocal line slips half out, like the first release of tears just before everything totally hits you. And then Bam. The guitar comes crushing down ontop of you. The reality sets in, and you feel everything all at once.
For 6 more minutes At Least.

Maybe a bit ham fisted with the song title, and assisted by the fact that the only word in sung in English I can understand is "farewell", this song to me marks an ending to a long overdue chapter in my life. I had spent days before even officially ending my relationship in that stasis after accepting the loss, hardly sleeping or eating and spending like 90% of my time in bed. And though I had also cried, I felt the true crushing of weight of it bearing down on me in the days following, and the catharsis of a good flipping cry finally came to me. Though, feeling how I do now, I also wonder if I had been feeling (or just delaying) the stasis for the two long years beforehand. I hope you're feeling cathartic about it too.

I think its pretty funny, and uplifting in a way, that this song also begins as the first track on this album on streaming services. While its not the "correct" track lineup, I think it gives the rest of the album a really good feeling like whatever else that follows is marked as the beginning of a new chapter too.
And hey! Here I am beginning my music logs with a farewell.
Maybe theres something to say with the last song "Just Abandoned Myself" also evoking a similar titular feeling, but I haven't thought that far ahead. I can't even really remember what comes between those two songs. Gosh I wish my weeaboo ass could speak Japanese.

Fare thee well.